Joy

Dont hurt me anymore, I dontwant.
I just wantto hug you to sleep everynight.

Joy

I missyou since thatday, right after you steppedout of the house.

Joy

Why do you have to say that? You know that word really, totally break myheart.
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Joy

Nothing to post and lazy to post.
Last Saturday was super sian, not really doing anything, hmmms, washcar, stay home.
And is super bored.
Sunday was going to grandparent'splace.
Monday was going to the library, reading...
Jp. Bl for dinner, home.
Tuesday was going for appt.
Then bwc for lunch and home, rest, dinner.
Yesterday was feeling so tired, dontknow why. Didnt do much thing.
Sleep at 4.30am lastnight, I couldnt sleep well. Then gotup at about 6am when the alarm ring, go back to sleep and gotup at like 7.30am.
Really so so tired!!
No appetite for lunch, had chickensoup and bread.
Should go shopping nextweek, I got a list of to-buy-list.:)
Missyoumissyou.

Joy

You dontknow how I feel, totally dontknow.
Its really tiring.
Just listen to what you say, what I say is always not counted.
I dont understand why you always got to tell others, thought its suppose to be within us?
okay, whatever.

Joy

F F F F F!!
TTM.

Joy

I am feeling really down, the feeling of bullied and yet cant do anything.
I wantyou to know, but I coudnt, I dontknow how.
I am afraid. I dontknow if you can keep it a secret. Is not I dont trust you, now, its not about trust.
Is that I dontwant to make things difficult for you and I dontwant you to get worried, or perhaps you might think its my fault. I dontknow, I just feel really upset and a little angry.
I dont like the feeling of having to cry over issue like that but I couldnt take it, I felt bullied and I got no one to turn to. And yet, have to pretend happy and be normal.
I really hope you can see for yourself. I dontknow where you going to stand but, I am all alone here.
And I really dontwant the life here to be so suffering, I really hate and I hope I donthave to tell people that mylife now is not good at all.
I wanted to tellyou lastnight but I got the feeling that it will either be you dont believe what I say or you will make thing worst. And if that happens, life over here will be more hard for me.
I dontwant that, I already keep quiet on most thing, I dontknow what else is going to happen.
Just because I am always keeping quiet doesnt mean I am good to bully.
I stay calm is because I didnt want to make things difficult foryou. I dontwant you to feel, dontknow what to do. If not, I would have move, sometime back.
Think I should tellyou whats going on.

Joy

Wentout early in the morning on Friday.
Wentover to the ICA, then grandparent'splace there for breakfast with love.
And to grandparent'splace.:)
Take a onehour nap then wentto hougangmall, lunch, shop, with mum.
Back afterthat.
Dinner, not eating much, no appetite.
Mj, home.:)
Saturday was going to woodlandscentre.
Had our lunch there too.:)
And down to tpy for the document thing.
To the bank, bread, juice... Back.
Out for dinner at like 7plus, bl.
F. A dinner also seems so difficult, I wanna have time with you alone, wont be having time withyou alone soon. But you just dont seems to understand. Was actually quite angry, irritated.
Walk around, dinner, back.
Play the morongame, hahaha. And dear wentout at like 10pm. But its okay, I got myboy with me.:):)
Sleep at prettylate, gotup at like 6am, then return to bed and gotup at 8.30am.
Of course return to bed, then gotup at like, 2pm.:):)
Lunch, watch some show, out to my parent'splace. Slack there while waiting for the rest, but I am too hungry so we wentfor dinner first.
Went cphawker, had friedhokkienmee and the kueh. Then wentfor rotiprata.:):)
Hy&Sam came and find us, and we decided not to go pub.
Change it to movie instead.
So we headdown to get the ticket instead, XMEN.
Then wentto np to walk around, sushi, herbaltea, youtiao, briyani, papadum.:):)
And movie is starting, waited for jean&co, kai&co.
Supper after movie.:)
Gotup at 8am this morning, not feelingwell.
No appetite for heavyfood.
Missyoumissyou.

Joy

Cant remember everything, so much thing.
Last Saturday was like going to washcar...
Kai'splace, as usual, home at wee hour.
Sunday was going to washcar again, grandparent'splace for steamboat.:)
And tvshow...
And the following wholeweek, nothing else.
Jp on wed at night.
Receive my puzzle on Fri.
Kai'splace again on Saturday, as usual.
Wentfor dinner at 8plus, upperthomson. Some Jap Restaurant.
Sunday was going to cwp with love.
Buy slipper, shoes.
And to the nightmarket!! Happyhappy. I love going there to walk around, buy food and eat.:)
And down to ssc next, buy some stuffs. Then meetup with HY&co..
Had dinner together at sembawangrd there.
Then to the pub, didnt intend to stay till so late but ya..
And happybirthday to Jeffrey!!
Monday I wentover to np, meetup with mum&sis.
Walk around and buy stuffs, but not for myself.
Wentto mc to slack and eat a little then walk around, and to the jap foodcourt for dinner, together with love.:)
Cp afterthat and home.
Tuesday was going to kranjimrt, meetup with bro&grandma.
Then went to uncle'soffice, do some stuffs, and ya, the industrialarea.
Hmmms, really got to cut down on transport. Cab is convenience and better but I cant afford.
Went grandparent'splace next, eat, mj, dinner, home.
A little disappointed withyou, couldnt get you at all.
Staying at home the wholeday yesterday.
Had very peaceful lunch.
Today I got nothing to do. Was surfing the net recently and shop online.
Hopefully spend the weekends happily thisweek.:):)

Joy

So tired recently.
Boring.
Cant stand the noise, going to exploit.