Thursday, July 17, 2014

Joy

Feeling super frustrated over the D issue. 
Is like why can't you get it done straightaway? I don't understand. 
Is like, you already know this is going to be the ending and what's the point for dragging?
Why can't you just let me feel safer? You also says we are adult, so why are you dragging?
Let me feel safer and lighten my heart, will you?
My heart really feels heavy and pain. 
I need a ft job, not much income. 
And this probably makes me not able to feel happy in any way. 
Love shouldn't be this way. 
Let me go for the time being, should I say, 'I beg you?'.
I am in trouble due to the D issue, for 'dragging too long'. 
Recently, I wonder, am I not being gracious enough to you?
There's so much thing I can do to get it done but I didn't. 
I am not asking for maintenance&expenses. 
I just want Brend. 
Feeling v v v down. 
Sometimes, some words are just so difficult to say it out, cause I care for your feelings, I do not want to hurt you. 
But how about you?
I still want to be friend w you after that.