Joy

So what if I tellyou whats wrong? Whats the point?
Continue to hate me, angry withme.
I should be letting you go instead.
You deserve better, not me. Maybe thisway, you will be happy.
What you have for me is simply not love, dont lie to yourself anymore.
Because love shouldnt be this way.
I am crying inside.

Joy

Craving for SUBWAY now!! HAHA. Take me there!!
So Wednesday was indeed a little upset.
Meeup with dear at super late. And you know the feeling of wanting to eat withyou alone?
But its always no, no&no. And I seriously dont like it, but I will never say. I dont mind accompanying you to eat, but I supposed that wasnt what you want.
Well, guess you wont read this, haha. OKAY, enough for this.
Yesterday was going over to the clinic but gotta get an appt, so we wentoff. Eat a little over there and home.:)
Rest, tvshow, surfnet and readings.
Feeling kinda happy today, so please dont spoil my mood. But I know you will, just by eating with the rest later. Call me selfish, but because the time we spend alone is already so little, spare some thoughts for me.
Okay, supper with love&co. lastnight, and back home, washup, tvshow and sleep.
Work today was great and not much things to do.:) Happy.
Craving for jk prata for a week already and finally.
Headdown to jk with colleague, dylan.
And yes, we are enjoying, we had; eggprata, plaintprata, onionsprata, mushroomprata, garlicnaan, thosai.:)
Just the two of us, excited!!
Wentover to urbanspoon next.
Chill over there and had some dessert.:)
And we were both so excited&crazy about the etiquette thing. Fun and great talking with here about all this. And next she started the babies topic, haha. And we are so into it.:)
Talking about babies name, the meaning behind and what are we going to name our kids, that was really interesting. Serious serious. The feeling is really excited when you are able to say all this with someone who is also interested and hear her saying this was really great. Great sharing.
And I supposed, both of us have kinda finish figuring the meaning behind those names we listout.
ALRIGHT, wentoff at 1015. And home.:)
Washup and surfing the net for the appt thing ya.
Seeyou soon, I really hope, please dont always let me wait. You know I yearn to seeyou.

Joy

Disappointed, didnt you say; 'I will be there?'
Why are we having a hardtime to communicate? This isnt right, not normal.
Yesterday was going to work, feeling super unwell. Lunch with colleagues.
Wentoff at 1530, headdown to yck for dl.:)
Fun!! Yck to sk, punggol.:)
Alright, wentover to amk next. Meetup with serenagirlf&cheryl.
Had dinner at nihonmura, no salmon, no tako, no unagi, hahas. So not like me, and they didnt order as well.:)
Had a fun time, lots of joke.
Wentto kbox next, sing, and no alcohol, lols. Just sing and enjoy. Was singing all the fast/rocksong lastnight and enjoying.
Dedicates till we dontknow what song to sing, LOLs. Girlf was saying this was the firsttime we sing till so pathetic, its still early and we really got no other song to sing. Hahas.
And ya, is only with them and I sing those songs.:)
Cab home afterthat, washup and sleep.
Wentto work today carrying lots of thing, supersuper heavy.
So, had freshmilk in the morning.
Wentto work, not so much for today.
Staying in office, bored.
Wentoff at 1830. Had dinner at home, watch tvshow, help sis with the packing.
Meetup with serenagirlf, got the craving for beancurd so we wentover.:)
Eat, pack and wentoff.
Seeyou soon hopefully, dont disappoint me.

Joy

Saturdaynight was having supper cum breakfast together with dearest.
Yesterday was goingover to pub, meetup with hygirlf there.:)
Had a long chat with her and ya, okay.
Wentoff at 11plus.
Work today was okay. Seriously no appetite.
Had freshmilk in the morning, and of course eat something during break.
Ot again today. Lots of thing to do.
Home at 8.30pm. Dinner, washup, tvshow, slack. Surfing the net and do thing.
Was having tummy pain/cramp like the wholeday. Terrible, on&off.
I really didnt wantyou to worried, and I wonder if it is sympathy?
I really wantto talk toyou, hear me, can?

Joy

Dont tell me 'soon' when it is not, cause it really break myheart, in to pieces.
Hearing it is of course happy at the beginning but, when it gets longer its totally hurting.
Dont treat me thisway, I am missingyou. Do you know? Dont you know the feeling?
And now, I am wondering, how long more.

Joy

Craving for jk rotiprata for a week already and supposed to go today, but endedup cancelled.
And ya, supper with love&co. lastnight and off.
And lastnight was too exciting, I almost couldnt breathe.:)
Gotup at 10 in the morning, and return to bed afterthat. Feeling damn painful, tummy. And back gets a little painful.
Well, wentout at 4pm, headover to sinming area first and I wentover to northpoint.
Exchange shorts, buy stuffs and backhome.
Rest, tvshow, dinner.
Totally no appetite, feels very tired.
And ya, surfnet, had the test. It answered my question.
Okay, listening to songs now, and definitely missingyou. Having headaches now.
When will I seeyou? Soon? I cant wait, mydear.
I just wantto hugyou quietly, dont talk.

Joy

I am getting so lazy recently.
Hmmms, cab down to work yesterday, didnt wentfor lunch, had some light snack in office.
Was really busy with stuffs, wentoff at 6plus, 7.
Meetup with dear. Had dinner together at eastcoast lagoon, havent been there for really long, haha. It was raining heavily.:(
Wenthome afterthat.:(:(
Washup, tvshow, net, polish nails, talking to sis and sleep.:)
Cab down to work this morning, again.
Didn't wentfor lunch again, was really doing lots of work. Lots of work need to be done.
And thanks girl for the burger.
Do work and stuffs, wentfor at 6.30pm.
Wenthome, dinner, tvshow, talking to dad, surfing net.
Watching tvshow now, and going to take a nap. I am tired, worried.
Missyou. Seeyou soon hopefully.

Joy

Had a wonderful dinner with mylove justnow.:)
Spend it happily. Thankyou.

Joy

Yesterday was taking cab down to work, and I really find myself getting more&more lazy.
Okay, data was damn lot.
Lunch at lounge with the rest, and pictionary.
That was so fun!! Enjoying!! Exciting!!
Back to work, and wentoff late. Reach home, do thing, dinner, bath.
Was really not well both, back&tummy.
And should have go to the doctor, but no time.
Backinjury is getting worst, doctor tomorrow, maybe.
Well, so I was kinda worried, afraid.
Today was going to work, had breakfast there and work.
Okay, lots of data need to be done.
Lunch at lounge and pictionary again.
Didnt carry my phone withme and to my surprise, mylove textme. That just make me so happy. Thankyouthankyou. Lovelove. I hope this will be consistent.
Wentdown to get blueberrymuffin afterthat and back to work.
And ya, wentoff late again.
Super tired, home, shower, eat a little. Tvshow and the broadband issue. F.
Looking forward to dinner tomorrow!!

Joy

'i need to hear your voice, get me through theday.'
missingyou. i'm in pieces.
i am really down, but can i turn toyou?